Adventure Time

  I know my blog has been, like, super serious. The month of May is going to be really exciting though. I am going to do my best to keep this thing updated. My boss, Sterling, is going to be flying out to Fort Lauderdale to get his new boat. In this new boat I have my own room equipped with a queen-sized bed! On the 1st Karol, my bosses sister in law, is coming while her husband sails back with Sterling. I am so excited because Karol is one of the most fun people I know. After Sterling gets back, he has to work for about a week and then we're taking 6 days to sail somewhere along the coast. I am so excited, mainly because this will be my first trip and the first of many this summer! I have a tendency to take pictures of everything so you will basically see my whole sailing experience!

I'm gonna be out at sea most of the summer! 

I'm so beyond excited, guys! Also, hopefully not when I'm out at sea, but a friend that I met at camp when I was 13 is coming to Houston in May. I haven't seen him in 9 years! 

Also, I am going to Austin for Memorial weekend to my cousin's lake house. Diana, Lizzy, and Lori are sisters that are actually my cousins. Through out my whole situation they have been a phenomenal support system and have grown to be more like my own big sisters. Lizzy is the sweetest princess there is. She's getting married in June which I am extremely excited about. Lori is pregnant and is going to be a terrific mother. So, excited for little baby Ramos to come in to the world(I can't stop buying baby stuff. It's all too cute.). Lori is the most hilarious person I know. She is my insight for tv and celebrity gossip, which is my embarrassing guilty pleasure. Don't judge me. And Diana, is just the most amazing person you'll ever meet. She's an attorney with her own firm, great sense of style and taste in music. I've had some of the most fun experiences in my life with her! So, it's basically gonna be the best weekend of all time. So, if my blog has been a bit on the melancholy side it's about to be super fun. Be patient my friends. 

I am beyond  excited everything is turning around. 

“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert

Peace.

At the risk of overwhelming myself, I am going to start another blog. It will be entirely dedicated to food, healthy and not so healthy, and fitness.  Especially because today I realized something. As busy as I am, I've got time. I am still trying to transfer to University of Houston, which thanks to UTEP has been extremely and unnecessarily difficult. I just found out that my grandfather's will has been found and he is finally at the crematory. Doesn't sound like something I should be relieved about, but I am. I spend a lot of time cleaning, painting pots, building things, and at the gym.Ya know, grown up things. Which is surreal all in itself, I mean, I take care of someone. Weird. I really am blessed with my job. I can travel whenever Sterling has a few days off and this summer will mostly be spent on a boat. They even gave me a paid leave when I was in Florida.

My point in all this is, I am extremely blessed. One of my biggest goals every day is to stay positive. My last post wasn't meant to bring anyone down but you never know what anyone else is going through. Which is why I've started thinking about making a list of the 22 most important people in my life and letting them know, one by one, how important they are to me.

The best way to lift yourself up is by lifting others up, too.

Anyways, I will have my new blog up soon and will be providing a link! Woot!

"Remember this. Hold on to this. This is the only perfection there is, the perfection of helping others. This is the only thing we can do that has any lasting meaning. This is why we're here. To make each other feel safe." -Andre Agassi

True Love

I've always heard that a girl's first true love is her father, but for me it was my grandfather. Don't get me wrong, I have always loved my father but our personalities clash. My grandfather passed away on March 26th. This past week has been quite revealing and upsetting but I want to take a moment to permanently put in to the world the best of my grandpa. Although it is true that we aren't "blood related," no one can tell my heart otherwise.

My brother and I used to spend the night at my grandparents quite a bit. My grandma would stay up late watching the most gruesome ER shows. As awful as they were we would stay up and watch them because, well, we got to stay up late. Each morning though, I would get up early to have a big bowl of Raisin Bran with my grandpa. It was his favorite so therefore, it was my favorite. Then would go for a long walk in their back yard. My grandparent's old house on Laney Road was way out in the country. They had a huge lake and a trail that led out to various people's back yards. This was a ritual every time I was there. We would walk and talk, and most of all, laugh.

He was the funniest, most goofy man you would ever meet. He couldn't stand still and would use his entire body to tell a story. He reminded me of Tim Allen in Home Improvement and would even make that little grunt. He loved and took care of my grandma. She was sweet and caring woman but not always the easiest for him to take care of. He wouldn't ever show that she was. He worshipped the ground she walked on. I remember a few conversations before he passed and he was always asking me if I found anyone. I was in my "Ugh, I don't need a man" phase but with each conversation he made me feel more optimistic about love. He'd tell me that there is a wonderful man out there waiting to love me. He just had so much excitement for me to find love.

If I find someone it will be a man just like him. Someone compassionate, that can make me really laugh, someone that will want to take care of me, someone that really listens when I talk, who will speak with so much wisdom, and finally someone that loves the way that he did. He had a special kind of love that made you feel important.

"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell."
      ~Edna St Vincent Millay